Stepping Down

I have been struggling over this matter a lot which is, should I resign as VP of PFA or shouldn’t I. This is my second time tendering my resignation and out of the two, James spoke to me and told me about his thoughts twice. I changed my mind the first time but not too sure bout this time. I am really thankful for him being in Innebandy!Co and in my life.

I’ve learned a lot about Floorball and leadership from Mr/Ps/Entrepreneur/Manager/Coach/President Edward Lim. It is under his mentor and guidance, I am where I am today. I can’t deny that fact. I will always remember this quote from him, ‘Nothing is more important than leadership’. Sometimes I question it, why leadership? Aren’t there many more important things than leadership? That is for you to find out. =p

I first met ed or knew about him when I first started playing floorball in 2003. I will always remember my first training session with him together with the first batch of players. Most of us were using the ‘radical’ club stick. I remembered this guy, Cornelius who owns a Karhu Hand of Doom. At that time, I wanted that stick because that’s the only high end stick I’ve ever seen. The blade, the design, the shaft makes it really desirable (back then). =) Training was always FUN even though I was still a newbie. It should be that way.

I remembered one of our session at Unleash Sport’s Camp, the topic was about who do you look up to as a leader and why? In my group itself, 90% answered Edward. I’m pretty sure his name was also mentioned in other groups. That is because his strength speaks through his actions and he is a big influence to many. If it’s not because of him, Floorball won’t be at where it is today. He is very focus and driven in achieving his vision while building leaders to run the same vision as he does. I admire his detailed observation, being able to be one step ahead of others and his ‘loudness’ which drives everyone forward. That is what I want to be and have. That’s why I admire and labeled him my mentor back in 2007. He is a very good coach, whether it’s floorball, swimming, Frisbee, captain ball, etc, he would be able to unleash your potential within you.

For all the guidance and lessons I’ve learned. Thank you from the bottom of my heart. These are all priceless lessons which I will never forget from this journey of life. If it’s not because of Yean May and him, I will always be a follower and a damn good one. =) So I wanna thank them again for trusting me and mentoring me back in those days. He also said, ‘Once a leader, always a leader’. I will continue to build what I have been building on together with my inner circle. Now I ride ‘alone’.

p/s I have decided to quit because I don’t feel like I’m growing and contributing to the team. I rather quit and not be the rotten apple. I do feel heavy hearted stepping down but I do believe in the positive of change.

Up and Down

With a new career and a ‘cacat-ed’ knee, life is more colorful now. ‘Mental Vs Physical’ was/is what I had/have been experiencing. Some things are just so significant in your life; it appears to be a tattoo on your skin. I have new experiences and new friends made during this period. But I have my downs as well.

I’ve gotten to know that one of my closest friend have been trying to commit suicide a couple of times. This news really breaks my heart and I cried over it. I just feel helpless that I can’t do anything about it. One night, ABCDEF called me and cried on the other side of the line, telling me he/she just cut him/herself and he/she is in a lot of pain. I can’t understand 80% of whatever he/she is saying because the person was crying pretty badly. I understand the pain and struggles he/she is going through; I tried really hard convincing him/her to get medical help before it’s too late. I wept. My mum was with me that time and she said, “If you trust God, let’s pray together.”

In desperation I surrender this burden to God. 10 minutes later, I got a call from the person promising me that he/she will never do that again. Tell me, is this just a coincidence or God’s intervention. =) I could have taken his/her sms as a joke before the call. If I did, I guess I would never see or hear from him/her again. But ‘something’ just speaks to my heart about the seriousness of the situation. I just obeyed.

Sometimes it’s hard when you have troubled and ‘annoying’ friends in your life. But always always remember they’re humans with emotions and feelings. You never know, one day we might be in their shoes too. HE showed us L-O-V-E, so should me and you. It’s easier said than done but we’ve to try. These four-letter-words will determine life or death, joy or sorrow, hope or disappointment, light or darkness. So I pledge you guys to show love, whether it’s on or off the floorball court, in school, in your work place, on the roads, etc. I’ve a lot to learn from this as well, that’s why I need my ‘Inner Circle’ to help me grow and improve myself.