A Man's Answer

I do know I have asked for the costliest thing
Ever made by the Hand above.
You are my heart, my life
and my ALL.

I do know I have asked for this priceless thing
And promised you that our love would be everlasting.

As a boy, I dash recklessly to you
As a young man, I plan my days to be near you.

I require nothing; neither mutton nor beef
For this does not satisfy,
My soul cries out loud.

I live to be as true as the Shining Star above
To prove that I am still worth.
A strings of disappointment and let downs,
Distorts my reputation and name.

A man and a king,

I know I would never be.

My heart may not me ocean strong but true,
Tidal waves they, reap right through me
Tears from eyes worn, cold and sad.

On the day you are made a bride,
I will do all I can to eliminate hell.
I would give all this,
If I am given a second chance.

You are right that a woman's heart and life

Are not to be won that way.
I am here to say,
This is a life lesson with a heavy price to pay.
I wish you could stay,
Till the end my days.

As a child, this is a dream I have,
But it is time to forgive and forget.
May you live happily ever after,
This will always be my prayer.

=)

National Training II

Sometimes giving your best is not good enough.
Sometimes putting your hopes up high will just bring more disappointments.

This is what I feel after our second centralized training. BUT I'm not gonna sit around with my lazy a** doing nothing about it. Our team has improved, but still not good enough to secure a placing in this coming APAC. I feel we're missing something...communication?aggressiveness?playing as a unit? Think about it. =)

3 things that Coach Dennis talked about before starting our training sessions;

1. Safe
2. Solid
3. Deliberate

Probably this is something that the coaches see we're lacking off, which is true. Playing safe; We love to make crazy passes through the middle or hold the ball too long in our defensive zone. Solid applies to all players, with us being physically smaller in comparison with other participating countries, we have to be solid in our plays, our defense, our possession of ball, etc. Being deliberate...hahaha. What I can conclude with this word is, if you play with your brains, you are deliberate, if not, you are not. Sometimes I don't play with my brains. Damn it!

Time to work on our weaknesses.

My Pledge For APAC Campaign 2010

I was talking to KY this morning and he gave me a very good suggestion/idea for the 2010 APAC fellas. We were talking about commitment and other matters regarding the team for APAC, and I feel that we should make every player sign a pledge to our Country.

Every time we represent our beloved country, Malaysia, we are accountable to Her name and reputation. If players fail to meet basic expectations like good sportsmanship, then Her name is doom. If players don't take seriously the mission of this campaign, then the whole team will be affected.

In order for our goal (earn a placing) to realize, we would love the team to sign a pledge (I will print it out on a proper paper) and to be ready to 'die' for Malaysia. =)

[will you?]

I pledge to play the game the best I can.
To be a team player.
To respect my opponents, the rules, and officials, and to improve myself in Spirit, Mind, and Body.
Win or lose, I will do the best for Malaysia.
I will be happy for the winner, and care for the loser, even when I don't feel like it.
I will try to get better every day from this second.
I will run at least 1 hour a week and train independently.
I will be committed to the team and the coaches.
I will fight till the end and never give up.
3-7 February 2010 APAC, Singapore will be a historic moment for the National Floorball Team because we will earn a qualification spot!
Yes we will!
And our first ever International Medal.
We will be history makers.

deswynwan
[i.pledge and i.believe]

PFA Fund Raiser

I made an announcement in Church yesterday and told them about the Fund Raiser event that PFA is organizing. At the end of the service, Sam and I were selling the tickets outside. Out of 100 tickets that I have in hands. Now I only have 0! =)

Wow...I'm so encouraged by the support of my Church members. Anyway, here is the details about the fundraiser. If you're interested, please please do not hesitate to msg me.

Innebandy!Co organised a swimming outing last weekend as we do not have a court for training. Turn out was really bad. Only Darien and I were there. Haha. And the pool was filled with girls. That made him too shy to strip and get in the pool. Only after an hour, he finally came in.

There is one Chinese guy there who keeps taking off an Indian boy underwear and shorts in the pool. So sick! I can see black a** floating in the pool.

Two guys came up to me and ask me about swimming techniques and advices. I'm really glad they did. That is the reason why I train hard, so I would be able add values into people like that. =) Its an honour.

[some thinks its a freakin taffic jam, others think its a good opportunity to spend more time together]

Back to the Track

After my freakin P6 exam, I'm glad to be back to training. A one week break kinda permits laziness to creep into my system. I have to kick them out! I haven't stepped into the gym for weeks I tell you. I just can't squeeze in so many things in a day. Hopefully tomorrow.

I wanted to do a double loop tonight to increase my mileage for the week but the whether don't look too good to me when I was going for the second round and I was afraid I might kill my phone again. Oh ya, I've gotten back my phone! Hurray! At least I have some company now.

Distance: 41km
Time: 1:16
Max speed: 53.1km/h
Avg speed: 32.4km/h

I am about 7 minutes off my target time.

And I bought another cycling shorts last week. When I first saw the shorts, I was like 'Wooooohhhhhh, so small, can fit meh?' You see for yourself. haha.

[vain pic =p like 'pak bah chang']

Last Sunday's massage was really simple and truthful. What I learned was whatever dream that God has planted in your heart. It would come to past because its from Him. Of course waiting is part of the process, it may take a day, a week, a month, a year, a decade...

What dream(s) do you have?

Hope deferred makes the heart sick, but a longing fulfilled is a tree of life
Proverbs

Sukpen IV 2009

"Penang Floorball Associatian has made history in Malaysia because of YOU!!"shouted Jason at the end of the two days Floorball tournament held at Shang Wu on the 4th and 5th Dec. It is the first time Floorball is ever featured in the Sukan Pulau Pinang (Sukpen) endorsed by the Majlis Sukan Malaysia Pulau Pinang. You guys really deserved a round of applause. *claps claps claps*

My special shoutout to the two schools who participated and their coaches, namely SMK Bukit Jambul and St.Xaviers. Some players had to sacrifice club duty for a higher duty, which is to represent their schools. Let continue to develop the school teams and one day we might have it on MSSPP! =)

When I first heard bout this tournament, I had an objective for my club, which is the win this tournament and put our name up there as the first ever champions for SUKPEN. That objective came through for the team and myself with a price of RM21.90. (Yup, that's how much Rooban and I paid the team) I guess sometimes a really motivation helps the team to perform better as they have a reward to look forward for.

The experience has been great, I got to make a few new friends and meet people from different clubs. We also had people who came to support us which is greatly appreciated by myself and the team.

Same ask me why do I play in this tournament. The reason is because I wanted/needed/have to leave a legacy behind for Innebandy!Co. I'm playing for the name in front of my jersey and not the name behind. I really hope I can help Innebandy!Co to be the biggest, most influential, most valuable, most sportsmanship and most successful club in the history of Malaysia. That is what the committee would like to see and we know we are getting there each week in and out. I'm happy to be part of it.

Winning this is definitely not because of my effort or participation but because each and everyone on the team rose up to the occasion and grab the moment and glory they deserved. Well done and congratulations!

[Team Innebandy!Co Champions of SUKPEN 2009]

Thank you for the All Star award, it's an honour. All glory goes to my Creator.

[swim + IC = 2 gold medals]

Today

A day to remember. Thanks for the memories.

The Crawl

This is one hell of a scary clip. Imagine me moving like that. From the Ironman running rules "1. No form of locomotion other than running, walking OR CRAWLING is allowed"



[fw]

Free Pics

The moment that I've been waiting for...the free downloadable pics for the PBIM sponsored by Digi. When I first saw the pics...the first thought that came through my mind was...it's really bad, no wonder its free.

[pic1 of me]

Yes. The person in white is me. So small don't know see what also. All I can see is Digi here and there.

[pic 2 of me]

I already prepared my 'pose' for the finishing pic. I even practiced it at the 20km mark. Yes, I raised up both my arms in my practice. The people on the opposite lane must be thinking this guy run until wire sot d. Haha. I think I 'posed' too early. Timing not good.

[pic 3 of me]

My face is like ... crap. Eyes closed, body positioning also tak betul. Mouth sumore open big big. Eyer.

I tried searching for pictures of people that I know and most of the result was no file was found except this one. This one also funny. =p

[pic 1 of Sam]

The guy in white on the right side is Sam. He's pic lagi teruk got 4 person in the pic. Haha. And he is so tiny. If he frames this pic up, people would think the one is orange is him. Aneh proper ki.

[A bicep and sam]

This also epic fail, no gaya at all. Wanna show show also cannot. Haha.

[41k bike]

Kayuh Malam

Last night's ride was awesome, not sure whether its because of the glucose drink that I had or what. Maybe its because I found the optimum gear for me, it may be lower than the usual one I use, but my cadence speed was faster, hence keeping the speed up with less energy output.

I could almost maintain 35km/h throughout my journey, which was about an hour. From my research, Craig Alexander and other top athletes ride at an average speed of 38~40km/h for close to 5hours. Power nia!

I'm already getting bored with my route, I need something fresh. What I did was I went up Bukit Gambir and turn back after the downhill. It was a double small climb and turn back via Jelutong expressway. I'm starting to find cycling dangerous. haha!

Distance: 36.54km
Time: 1:09:27
Max speed: 51km/h

Phone still not okay, no music during training. Kinda bored without it, makes you think a lot. A lot things start rushing through my mind. Getting worried. =/

I'm down with an infected eye. Very irritating! =(

[Ima is a beauty, the more I look at her, the more I appreciate her]

Ford IronMan World Championship

If you are a triathlete, there is no bigger day in this sport than the Ford Ironman World Championship. It is the race that defined our sport as it came of age, and continues to be the defining race in our sport for any avid triathlete.

To get to the starting line in Kona, you must either be very lucky and get yourself a spot through the lottery, or very talented, and win yourself a qualifying spot at one of the qualifying events held around the world.

Tens-of-thousands of triathletes try to get one of those coveted Ironman spots every year. Only 1,800 succeeded.

That means 1,800 "lucky" people get to test themselves on one of the biggest challenges the sports world has to offer ... 2.4-miles of swimming, 112-miles of biking, and a 26.2-mile marathon run through tough ocean waves, and challenging lava-covered terrain.

While there are thousands of triathlons around the world, it is this one that truly defines the sport. It all began at an Awards Ceremony for a relay running race in Honolulu in 1977. A group of local athletes discussed the idea of an endurance triathlon and combining three major events that already existed on the island. John Collins suggested combining them and making it a single-day event. Later that evening, Collins took the stage announcing the event and that "whoever finishes first, we will call him the IRONMAN." It has since become triathlon's Super Bowl, Wimbledon, World Series, World Cup, and Tour de France all rolled into one. What makes this event so unique is that "average" people get to compete alongside the best in the world.

Exerted from http://ironman.com/worldchampionship

Top Reasons To Date A Triathlete

Not too long ago, I came across a post on likealostghost.com regarding '10 Reasons to Date a Drummer.' So I thought I should Google on 'Reasons to date a Triathlete'. The list goes like this;

• Going long and hard is the name of the game
• We're oh-so smooth
• Worst case scenario we last 17 hours
• We like to get wet
• We also like to get sweaty
• We know when to make our move
• "Mechanical difficulties" are never much of an issue
• We are ALWAYS tweaking our position
• Spandex!
• We know how to ride
• We routinely get undressed in mere seconds
• We know how to finish strong
• We can perform under any condition
• We're up for a ride anywhere, anytime
• We never stop no matter how hard it is
• We're half naked
• We always put in a hard thrust at the very end
• We don't mind when things gets a lil rough

It sounds awfully wrong. =p

My second PBIM

The day before the race, we had our ritual team meet up aka carbo loading. Met a few new guys and familiar faces from Team Miracle Mile. Collected our race pack, etc. Later that night, Sam came over my place to stay for the night. We then load again and he bought his first ever PowerBar.

With so much of loading, I planned to release those crap and unnecessary burden before race morning. We went to bed about 9.00pm woke up at 2.10am. Tried to crap, push, push but nothing came out. No choice, I have to carry those 'burden'.

Got there by bike, I was only in my running vest and it was freezing cold. What a way to start before the race.

Did a little warm up and I was ready to go. The muted-gun went off and the race begins. Met a couple of floorballers along the way, wished them all the best and went on.

Just before getting on the bridge Sam asked why am I running so slow. He said my pace should be faster than my current speed. I knew what to expect because I've been through this road before. I told him, 'Relax, we have a long way still.' Didn't wanna tekan so fast.

First 10K was pretty good, managed to clocked a PB of 48:16. that's an average of 12.4km/h. That's a good speed. I was pacing this grey singlet guy from the 6th km mark, he's speed was consistent and fast. In my mind I know I can take him down. I tried to overtake him, but he seems to be further from me, I tried to close our gap but it widen again. It was frustrating, in my head I went, 'Walau, this guy aneh keat meh?.' Its only at the 11th km mark, that's when I overtook him. It felt great! (Pace and hunt technique to keep your head busy)

Into the 15K mark, the bridge seems to clear off, more space less people. It was a race against time. Target was a sub 2hours, problem is I did not wear a watch or carry my phone with me. So I didn't know how much time I have taken.

I saw bananas, should I take? A bit hungry la. haih...forget bout it. Eat later focus now. But it looks big and tempting. hehe.

I didn't feel too good, stomach giving me problem and I could feel those 'burden' at the end of the hose if you know what I mean. I was so afraid I would be too tired to hold those 'burden' together.

Hence, pace started to drop, I could feel tiredness creeping through my legs. Have to stay strong, looked my LIVESTRONG wrist band. Felt a rush of energy again. Aha...my mental workout works. =)

After my turn at the E.gate checkpoint, I saw a bunch of scouts sleeping like babies. I know this has nothing to do with me but I feel like waking them up with a loud roar. Just for fun. Tension d that time.

Saw the last 2K mark, time to tekan turbo. I thought I would overtake most of the runners there, but I was wrong. They were all strong as well, some even tekan NOS. Run run run, saw the finishing line, wohoo. No crowd to cheer me on, so no semangat la the ending. Net time was 1:46:10 and I came out 66th placing. I am happy with my time.

Went to get those free drinks and bananas along the way. A Digi promoter came up to be at about 4+ am to promote their broadband. I was like, Waaaaaaah, this people are crazy. Sipek hardworking. See you tired also boh pang kua.

My Dream Birthday Gift

I woke up it was seven, walked down the stairs, rubs my eyes, rub again and again. WAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Is this for real?!!!! My parents are the BEST!! Wohoo! Did not expect that coming! A Trek Equinox TTX under my roof for my birthday. =) I'm the happiest kid on planet earth now.

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That did not actually happen in reality. But I did receive a card from my family, every year without fail. And that actually weights more than the above bike. I know how they feel towards me as a son and brother but the bike would never give me that feelings.

Anything material is a bonus to me. =p

Hot and Cold, Up and Down

After last weekend's hell week, I had to take Monday off. No form of exercise on that day. Just total recovery. I felt better the next day, so I decided to cycle up BP again. Didn't wanna cycle back home as I was not 100% fit. I feel I lack of proper nutrients.

The journey there is always a pain in my butt, it does not get easier but I know it makes me stronger. Trust me, it not easy.

Distance: 18.61km
Time: 52:54
Max speed:61.4km/h

Cruising 61.4km/r downhill is adrenaline rushing! Yeah! I only do that on straight road so don't worry.

Floorball training was at a medium intensity with a lot of basic drills. Sometimes we just need to get out feet back on the ground.

Did a 8k run the following day, legs still not fully recovered but time is running out. I have meetings and outing the following days, so this might be my last run before my half marathon. During lunch, my dad asked me, 'I thought last year you said you're not gonna participate in the bridge run anymore?' I just went, 'Hahaha.' It happens after every post race. The pain and torture after it and also the glory and satisfaction.

Distance: 8km
Time: 38:57
Average speed: 12.3km/h

I am down again. I hope my body can tahan until 22th Nov. After this I might treat it a good body massage.

Heard of Marathon Des Sables before? This is even more hardcore than ultra marathons. I just admire people who pushes the human limit. Insane courage!

Bad Trip

This was my 3rd trip down to KL for the past two months. I missed 4 youth services consecutively and 3 morning services. I felt really guilty!

Why was it a bad trip?

[Before training]

• I forgot to bring my wallet to KL. Left it in my colleague's handbag cause I was rushing to LinKen's house. But thanks to Ter Min and Suzie, I got a short-tem loan interest free.
  
• I did not feel too good. Under the rain for 2days might trigger this problem.
• Couldn't sleep well because I don't have a blanket. It was cold in the middle of the night. I got close to TerMin to get some body heat. Could feel our ass touching each other. Only butt was warm but my body still cold. He complained in the morning. haha!
  
• My muscles started to ache in the morning even before training and I knew it's gonna be a bad training for me.
  

[During training]

• I did not bring enough clothes (was feeling cold due to my soaking wet shirt.)
• Back really hurts, could not perform anymore as speed was dropping.
• No money to buy cold drinks.
• My stomach was bloated (no food after one piece of roti telur in the morning).
• Cramp is kicking in, very rare for me. Its a confirmation that my body is down.
  

[After training]

• Vomited.
  
• Only had Maggi sup ayam after 6hours of training. Wanted something soupy and warm but that's the only thing they had.
  
• Could not finish my naan and teh o panas.
• Body feeling really down.
• Every muscle in my body is 'over-reacting'/merajuk.
  
• No medicated oil but found almost empty tiger balm to apply on my back and hands.
  
• Wanted to sleep early but Ter Min wants to talk. hahaha!
  
• Overslept that night.

[On the way back home]

• The queue as KFC was really long and a woman behind me was complaining. So irritating.
• Couldn't stand properly.
  
• Even with KFC, my favourite fast food restaurant. I could not enjoy it. Not satisfied at all but the soup taste so good.
  
• Ter Min's fart was betul betul KAW! Thick smelly crap air coming out frequently.
• Vomited when I reached home again. Vomited after dinner again.
  

Confirm I'm unfit/unwell. It was more than a physical thing. I could feel dryness within my soul crying out.

[i could feel IT leaving]

Target for Olympic Distance

My goal for Olympic distance (1.5k swim 40k bike 10k run) triathlon is to be in the Top 20 for my age group. Below is the result for 2009's PD International triathlon. From my basic analysis, getting into the Top20 will be hell.

[result]

I have to swim an average of 2.6k/h, bike 35.3k/h and run 14.7k/h. Its not gonna be easy at all. How now? As long as I don't achieve this goal, I won't move on to half iron man. I'm accountable to you. =p

Going KL this weekend for our centralized Floorball national training. Its gonna be exciting as players from all over the country will coming together. I'm doing all this for Malaysia. Our National anthem 'Negara-ku' is the most inspirational song before any International tournament.

[BP]