FAQ: What happen to you? Part II

Sleeping in the hospital in awful. The sound, the smell, the sight, the bed, etc. It's a whole new experience for me because it was my first time and sekali kena 9days 8nights. A friend told me that some of them sound like they're gonna 'go' anytime. And it's pretty true. There were also times where I didn't get out of my bed for 3days. Imagine, the bed sheets weren't changed and I peed on it a few times. =( sucky when you are immobile.

ice compressor to reduce swelling

They inserted a tube in my knee to draw out those excessive fluid in my knee. The colour of the fluid is yellowish. Looks like pee and that's clean fluid. It's weird when you have things like this stuck in your body. Any slight movement from my knee hurts badly for the first 3 days after surgery. My mood was really really crappy! I snapped at my mum and gf. I really feel bad for my mum especially. She was there for me throughout my suffering. She had to throw my urine and feed me, clean me, etc and yet get all those crap from me. I really suck.

tube in my knee

After they removed the tube from my knee (which was also painful), I started doing a little bending with the help of a machine. I couldn't even bend for more than 30degrees. It was really bad. The following day, I was brought to the physiotherapy ward for further exercises. I was really happy when both my feet touched the ground, standing. I almost teared, too kamtong.

the bending machine

Finally, doctor gave me the green light to go home when I could walk with crutches. Felt happy and relieve that I could go home. The polluted air outside the hospital felt good. The sound of traffic jam, ahhhhhh...it's the sound of F-R-E-E-D-O-M.

I really wanna thank my friends for visiting me. It really mean a lot to me! The thought, the flowers, the prayers, the laughter, everything just made me feel better. Thank you and I really appreciate you guys and girls for turning up. =)

To be continue.

FAQ: What happen to you?

This question is getting on my nerves already. I'll explained here once and for all. One fine day, I was crossing the road. I was talking on the phone, hence concentration was significantly reduced to 10%. I heard someone screaming, "STOP!!!!" but I just ignored it. A car cruising about 50km/h came and hit my right knee and it broke. My knee cap went backwards like those big birds. Ostrich? My knee cap was so badly damaged that I a knee cap replacement was required. Hence, I'm a little handicap now.

Just joking ^^

It all happen a month ago, it was Hari Malaysia (16th September 2010). I went to Adventist because both my eyes were super bloody red and swollen, I had UTI and my right knee cap was swollen. I couldn't walk properly and I was limping. Doc advised me to be admitted and further test are required for diagnosis.

Test 1
Did an eye swab. Ophthalmologist suspect that I have bacteria infection in my eyes.

Test 2
Took blood. But blood couldn't flow out. Only succeeded after the 4th attempt. (4 pricks)

Test 3
Saw an orthopedic. Sent me for X-ray but nothing was wrong. He said my knee was filled with fluid. So he said need to suck it out. I asked how? He said by injection. Ask me to lie down, put a plastic around my knee and the process begun. KNN! Suck out 50cc of fluid and got prick 5 times (9pricks). I was in pain, tears started to run down my cheeks. I can't walk anymore. The fluid was send for lab testing.

Later that night, the orthopedic came to my ward showing me the lab report. Don't understand a thing, saw something something bacteria = few. Phewwwww...a few bacteria nia ma. No big deal. So I asked him what should we do. He said need to operate. KNN! First time got admitted...must go under the knife d. I've never even done a x-ray before. And needles stucking in my body (IV) lagi tak pernah. Called my mum told her about it. Got very scared and nervous.

Surgery day
Was expecting them to shave me off. But they did not. Nurse gave me a special shampoo to bathe, wore the hospital gown and off I went. A nurse wheeled me to the operating theater. As we got closer it got colder. Sign the papers and I'm in. An anesthetist showed me a lying position picture, he asked me to imitate that post. I did and he injected my back (5th prick), most probably my spinal cord. He told me he'll just numb half my body and I will feel 'bah bah and song song'. KNN! People don't wanna be awake le. Just put me to sleep. After I complained, I think he also bth. Hence, put me to sleep.

When I woke up. It was hell! I was in pain. So much pain that I needed morphine. And this time to inserted something in my left chest(6th prick). really KNN. It was more painful than my knee. What kinda pain killer is this? Sometimes they inject it in my ass (7th and 8th prick) sometimes through the chest.

for morphine jabs

To be continue.

[talking about this really makes me feel all angry and upset again. so pardon my language]

I Have Arthritis

I was in the car with my dad, we just dropped mum off at Guardian to get new dressing for my knee. Dad knew I was down and disturbed even though it has been 2 weeks after my surgery. He told me this, "Trials and testings come from God, temptation comes from the devil. What you're going through is from God". This really strucked me hard because if this is from God, it must be God's will to achieve something bigger in my life.

I have people coming in and out telling me that this is a wake up call, a reminder, a caution, etc from God. How true is this to me? I would say, they are damn right about this. No matter how much I try to run and deny that He is real, I could not because I would somehow be reminded by my parents, pastors during the sermon, friends and a still small voice in me that God really loves me and I can never run away from Him. I felt like I was Jonah.

My dad then encourage me with James 1:2-8

Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. If any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him. But when he asks, he must believe and not doubt, because he who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. That man should not think he will receive anything from the Lord; he is a double-minded man, unstable in all he does.

I remember using this verse to encourage my fellow Innebandiens during our hardcore physical training I used to conduct. I told them consider this as pure joy when you're suffering physically because you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. How can I know be reminded of something I've shared. I really wanna thank my dad for this reminder.

For the past week, I have been very down and negative about the whole incident. I worry a lot, not knowing what my sports life would be in the future. Will I still be able to come back into competitive sports and finish my first full marathon? It scares me knowing this is a long term disease. Who would expect me to fall into this category? I am only 24 and I have so much I wanna achive and do. No one would expect me to get arthritis. It happen so sudden and even the doctors can't explain.

But I've came to a realization that we aren't immortal and iron as we think we are. God gives and He takes as well. Not easy to be in my situation but I believe this happen for a bigger cause and purpose. =) Just continue to support me by praying for wisdom and strength.

Dad: Be patient, total healing takes time.
Me: I can't seem to stay positive 24/7 =/ feel weak mentally
Dad: Your handicap affect your mind, so use your mind to affect your handicap.
Me: chim...okay will try. thanks dad

That's my dad ^^

Inspiring One

Remember the post where I was looking for an affordable entry level road bike (she's the Ima today). Hence contacted Josiah Ng via email and he replied. I was really surprised when he replied! He's such a humble and nice guy. He is also one of those athletes who inspires me to be better.

The little excerpt written by Natasha Kraal, the editor of Harper’s Bazaar on Josiah Ng (National cyclist).

He’s the superhero; the multimilionaire; the man in the headlines (for better or bad)l has the brain to match the brawn, and the sensitive soul borne of field vulnerability. Forget those suits, sports make better men. Ng represents the new breed of Malaysian sportsmen that are daring to turn their passion into profession, without the fanfare or sense of entitlement. Like Ng, they prove themselves first in the international arena, against the big boys, without any expectation of hero worship back home. Tough if we do.

josiah ng

How I wish someone would write that about me. ^^ Anyway let's breakdown the article.

1. Forget those suits, sports make better men Is this fact or ?
   
2. Daring to turn their passion into profession, without the fanfare or sense of entitlement Is this possible for all sports in Malaysia? Yes but be ready to sacrifice a lot and don't expect much in return.
   
3. First in the international arena, against the big boys, without any expectation of hero worship back home. This hit me the most because we (the floorballers) face this. And sometimes we talk about our shameful defeat and humiliation in international tournaments, etc. I ask myself, would I still play for the country if we're joining APAC 2011? If I don't expect hero worship back home, I think I should say yes. As for now... I still don't have the answer. Still searching...still asking...still questioning... But for those who say 'YES, let's try again.' Please please 'die' trying hard for the country.

Josiah’s Look bike, equivalent to a Ferrari car in the cycling world

Meeting The Spartans IV

Tomorrow's game will probably be the most anticipated match out of the 5 matches in PFL Div1 for me. You might be wondering why this game and not the one against Ztec Phoenix on the 10 Aug 2010. I'll tell you why... one thing about me is... sometimes I cannot tahan the critics/comment/prediction/etc from third party. For this case is BBF le. No offence...I enjoy reading their post but I like proving people wrong. I like it when the outcome is the total opposite of the forecast.

But BBF's prediction is pretty accurate.

The below is the extraction from BBF's Team Preview 2009.

Jose:
Innebandy!Co to finish 3rd out of the 6 teams.

Bendy:
Innebandy has a proud history backed with medals from tournaments all over. 3rd should be reasonable, snatching 2nd is also possible but watch your back, cuz your will never know who might stab you from behind...

This Jose and Bendy is like Paul the Octopus and I bet one of them look like Paul as well. lol. Just kidding. =p But they were right. We came out 3rd last year. Sipek chun (very accurate).

Read on.

Innebandy has never beaten Frontliners before.
And so the end of a gruesome fight between the both, the curse stood unshaken, unbreakable.
Borak Borak Floorball post dated 9 July 2009

Head to Head History against Frontliners

PFL - 2008
Innebandy!Co 3-5 Frontliners
Lost

PFL - 2009
Innebandy!Co 2-3 Frontliners
Lost

SUKPEN - 2009
Innebandy!Co 2-2 Frontliners

Draw

PFL - 2010
Innebandy!Co 5 - 0 Frontliners
Win

[updated on 27/7/2010]

So can you see why this is the most anticipated match for me? To break the 'curse' if there is such a thing. =)

Talent Is Never Enough

I love this book because it teaches me a lot about myself. I came to a point where I was sure I would still come out 'top' without my usual training regimen. Many would consider that cockiness but it was just a thought deep inside me. Reason for me thinking that way is because I know I am gifted/talented and I believe this is a God given talent. [which I feel I have been taking it for granted lately]

In my early days [about 7 years ago] when I started Floorball, I made a prayer which links my performance with my spiritual life. If my spiritual life is good, my performance is excellent and vice versa. And its really accurate and true for me, till this very day. I wanted to be a good Christian first, then a Malaysian sportsperson.

As for now, I'm like a fish out of water, struggling and flipping myself, trying to find my way back to the water. Flipping and still flipping. It is scary when you are the person people talks about and you'd never expect you to be them. Still don't get it? A youth leader who backslide, dropped out from leadership positions, becoming worldly, etc. And today, you woke up thinking to yourself, 'Oh sh*t... I am that 'person' already.' That sucks big time.

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood, and sorry I could not travel both. =(

Whatever talent you have you can improve. Never forget the choices you make in the end make you. Choose to be a talent-plus person. If you do, you will add value to yourself, add value to others, and accomplish much more than you dreamed was possible.

John C Maxwell

Please make the right choice kids.
Think.
Think again.

When You Stop, You Restart

When you take a break from training, your body starts to turn to mush:

a) after a few months
b) after a few weeks
c) after a few days
d) almost immediately

Reason for asking this is because I have been slacking in my training! Hate to break that out but it's the truth and there's nothing to hide when it comes to the truth. =( However, I read that the rate of deterioration occurs is slower than you may think. In fact, most elements of your fitness go down at about the same rate at which they goes up.

Is that good news or what? Yes? No?

In the first place, why in the world do I have to write this post!? This is unacceptable! I was reading John C Maxell's Talent Is Not Enough and one of the topic was about self discipline. I'm gonna discipline my notty little body from now on. No more skipping! Or I'll spank you. ^^

The mark of a true champion is consistency. Knowing what to do is not enough. You must do what you know.

Balik Pulau with Ima tonight.

Team Elite for PFL DIV1 2010

Let me try to do an introduction for Innebandy!Co's team elite 2010/11. We've come a loooooooooooooooooooong way, especially for those senior/pioneer players who started with Blazing Eagles. We've struggle through our journey to reach 'today'.

We had difficulties with club growth, regular/committed players with the club, you name it we got it. I have a friend who told me, Innebandy!Co is like a baby to me. Those who have been with us since Day1 would understand the struggle and pain we've went through together. I guess that's how babies grow in a child, a youth then a real man that will withstand any challenges.

The era of Innebandy!Co relying on a few key players has come to an end! It is over and I am glad for this =) The world knows it, so do you. Our young players have grown a lot, mentally and physically. They have been 'tattooed' with the culture, training philosophies, law of victory, never give up attitude and determination during training. Even in borak-borak floorball, they said our forwards are more fledged. I really agree with this.

Sam and I talk a lot about our club when we drive back from BP. He said one of our goals this year was club growth (in terms of number of players ) and was a little disappointed because we didn't really achieve it. In a way it is pretty true, but we are growing gradually this year with the addition of Team Livestrong, adoption of schools (MGS and PFS), etc. I told him we are on the right track. With committed players in team Elite and Livestrong, they will bring in players of the same kind. And we will grow! Just like the law of Dividends. It just takes time...

This year's team is special because this is the strongest squad ever for the club. (in my opinion) Why do I say that.

Look at Chester, that cool and super calm cameraman is now hungry for goals. He can even make solo runs up and score! That is what I call entertainment.

My first game against Contact, playing forward with Jason makes me realize he is one tough bull/Park Ji-Sung and real quick in taking rebound. He KS one of the goals. =( but good for the team. =)

Rubine our solid rock in defense always making it hard for me to score during training. He has grown a lot! Way to go.

Our very own christiano ronaldo, Previn. hehehe. Has speed of lighting that will burn your a** if you don't watch out. Run baby run! I wanna be fast like you. =x

The 2009 rising rookie, Darien may not catch the attention of the crowd this year but I tell you, he is one player who knows what creativity is, and that is essential. Keep it up.

2010 Wild card, David Kok! This is the Messi in floorball. A genius on court with good killer instinct. With more games in his pocket, he would be unstoppable. ^^

The faithful Salibandien who transferred to Innebandy a few years back, Andrew has grown a lot as well. You will see his name on the score chart this year. I still remember the days of him training/playing on Tarc's tennis court. =p

The hardworking and determine Joshua, never fail to display insane courage every time he steps in court. As time passes by, he will be a greater threat to our opponents. Does the unexpected occasionally. =)

Bryan, my partner in crime. I wouldn't trade anyone to play on top with me. I'll always remember him as a cry baby in state training last time. But today, he is the one that will make others cry. I feel he is the better version of me. Good job!

My favourite ex-captain E, Ephraim is one fella that grown the most. THE MOST! I find him a really valuable asset because he is more than a player. He is a leader in the club even if he doesn't have any leadership role. He plays good floorball, tricky and will always be a threat to our opponents.

Mamaroyong Nicholes, we missed him in last year's PFL and it's great to have him on board this year. He is unpredictable and that makes him unstoppable. Sometimes we don't know what he is doing but that's the element of surprise for our opponent! =p

Captain Lin Ken...the best in his field. I guess he is one person who will determine whether we will get the Gold medal this year or otherwise. Always giving good feedback, ideas and tips. A really good loud motivator that will drive us throughout this campaign! The backbone of team Elite!

And finally...Sam...the useless defender that let in the only goal against Contact in the 19.59 minute. Lousy! hahaha! Just joking la, we still love you for that deficit. ^^ He is the brains behind the club, without him I wouldn't feel as confident playing with a different strategy. Without him, is like curry mee without curry mee chili, plain and mild. An experience solid defender with killer instinct and most importantly, he play with brains.

With this kinda teammates. Don't you think its the best we've ever gotten? They asked, Can they finally lift the title after a drought of 2 consecutive years?
My answer is...

YES!

YES! YES!

YES! YES! YES!

Team Elite 2010/11 going for GOLD

Tough Training

Brought Ima together with me for my state physical training. She was really happy to be on the road again, with some rain, she played like a little child. Happy and cheerful. =) I always feel proud bringing her out. I feel like a proud 'dad' cum owner. Feels good when we go fast together!

I estimated to reach Metro Park within 30minutes, but because of the rain and a break from riding. I took 5 minutes extra to reach my destination. I was partially wet and smelly when I got there. =x Saw Coach Ed and the team assembled at the foyer. I would like to call that, the Fellowship of the Physical Training.

Started with 50-100 star jumps as warm up > lunges > push ups > crunches > bridge > rojak of everything. As for me, the hardest is the push ups. I could feel my hold body trembling when we did the last 10 slow push ups. Further to that, I had teammates that were making funny noises which adds on to the work out. It became harder because laughing requires energy and it got me distracted. But it was fun time. =P

The thing that I like about yesterday's training was, I could feel pain and all without any fancy equipment. You can do a hardcore workout at home if you're discipline enough. That's independent culture. With me quitting my gym membership, I have to be more discipline to train at home. Let's see how it goes.

Journey back was suffering!

[18K + PT + 17K]

Team liveSTRONG

We started out with only 3 juniors, out of 3, only two were regulars. It was a little frustrating in the beginning. It felt like a waste of resources and its hard for them to play a game or do drills. Frus! But we continue on with training, being persistent and hopeful that one day, we will bring in more junior players.

As at today, we have about 10 junior players in our club. Would like to specially thank John Jonathan for supporting and giving advice behind the scene. He even brought in 3 kids to the club and soon find themselves liking Floorball. That's really cool.


Problem with the junior team is, we have players who are around 7-10 years old, high school and college students. The gap is really huge and sometimes I find it hard to run certain drills. And communicating with kids are a little more difficult. haha. They're cute and all but it's really hard to get their attention for more than 20 seconds. But I enjoy my job because I believe this players will be in Team Elite in 5 years time. Like the Law of Dividends by John C Maxwell, investing in the team compounds over time.

[IC]

Passion Uh La La

There's a huge difference in mindset when you train with passion versus merely pushing yourself to attain a goal. With passion, it sets up a neurological response that gives you pure motivation, it takes out the grind of daily training sessions. Don't we all hate the physical training at Bukit Dumbar, Metropolitan Park or the gym? It simply means, we are not passionate about getting strong, hard, fast, etc physically and mentally.

3rd LOV tells us that, passion should be unquenchable. Who does it mean by unquenchable? I like the definition from this online dictionary;

'Impossible to suppress or destroy'

But is it possible to say its impossible for passion do die down or get destroyed? Based on my life experience, passion can be suppress or destroy, usually by people you're close with and people you trust. I call them the 'destroyer'. People like them only look at problems and not opportunity or potential a person have. =(

The good news it, passion can be revived and renewed. I remember during my college days, the FES chairman(lady) told us, passion is like a bubble. Sometimes people (the destroyer) pops it intentionally (for whatever selfish reasons) but we can inflate it back again by trusting yourself, listening to your heart and relying on God.

I admit I've lost my passion for a couple of things in life. =( I know I am different. As I read blogs, FB wall posts and comments of floorballers around Penang. I am driven and shaken up by their passion for the sport. I am listening and watching you guys. =) You may not know me but I recognize this people. For that I salute you and wish you all the best.

Keep the passion burning!

Develop A Training Strategy

For anything great that has been achieved, it all comes down to strategy. Develop a training strategy that will allow you to accomplish your goal. Random workouts or a gradual increase in distance are a flawed approach. i.e use a blog to track down your time/distance/what your body tells you/etc or use 555notebook =) Just keep track of it. Monitor your training and improve from it.

A training strategy gets you from where you are today to where you want to be. It allows you to be disciplined, decisive and creative. [4th LOV - Creativity is essential] You can create great result for yourself. It saves you time, energy, failure and frustrations.

Success is not only mindset [mental]. It is a strategy [physical]. Develop YOUR strategy today.


[fw]

MIA

Was late for training yesterday because of Sam. hahaha. Anyway, I missed a session of push ups which almost kill half of the floorballers there. I hate it when I miss something hard and tough. =/ Did a couple of 'star jumps' and 5 laps of killers. We had a little debrief after our training. Coach Ed states, he could train more if he trains alone. Which is pretty true. I can do more if I train alone. So why bother training with your teammates?

Training builds team chemistry and I have been lacking on this area. I tend to only click with certain groups of people in the state team which is not healthy. I'm gonna try to bond with the team and take effort to fix things. =)

Often times, training will become hard. You wonder - How can I do this? How long will it take me? Am I crazy to be doing this?

Stay on course. When your mental toughness is challenged, it is a sign that you are getting closer to victory. [5th law of the LOV - quitting is unthinkable] Continue to persevere relentlessly. Your rewards are close at hand.

[I am so so sorry Ima. Give me another chance will you?]

Confidence

I have a friend whose name is Lim Kok Heng. He was really good in snooker but not anymore. hahaha. He had good accuracy, good placing, good form, confident, etc I remembered when I was around 14 or 15, he beat me without any fight. And he was really full of confident.

Recently, he started talking about getting back into the game after a break from snooker. He played with another friend, whose has less skill and experience. But the result was shocking! He lost the game. Reason for his lost was he lost his confidence. Totally lost it, even though he is facing a weaker opponent.

Confidence and poise comes with proper preparation. It is earned by the athlete with thoughtful training sessions. Confidence is earned. It is not given. Even for those with gifted athleticism, one will still have to train effectively to perform well.

Julian Dean

Let's study his mistakes and not repeat 'em if you wanna be a successful athlete/person. When you're full of confidence, you'd perform better. You'd be more calm and with that, you'd be able to handle the competition stress, etc. So how do we build confidence? With reference to the above quote;

1. Proper preparation
2. Have a thoughtful training sessions
3. Acknowledge that confidence is earned not given
4. Talent alone is never enough, train effectively

Based on the quote, it's all about training, training and training. Training makes us familiar with the 'stuff' that we do. It will then turn into a habit, from habit to confidence, from high level of confidence, a higher probability to succeed/win.

Back to Mr Lim's case, I did try motivate him and encourage him by boosting his confidence level. End result, he performed better, feel good about himself and manage to beat the same person in a rematch. =)

[this is based on a true story]

Precision [floorball] Academy

Precision is a small 'friend' who creates big impact in whatever you do. I've learned this from my many experiences. If you're one person who hits the gym, how you hold the barbell will define which muscle parts you're working on. It may just be a difference of an inch or less, but the result is significant in the long run.

Cycling position, when you get into an aero position. You're able to penetrate the head wind more efficiently. Where you place your legs on the pedal, how you sit on the saddle, etc. All things affects your performance and speed.

Taking a good shot on court. This I tell you...really wan. How you hold the stick and which part of the blade contacting the ball...will affect the speed, precision and power of your shot. If you're still wondering, how can you improve on that. Try experimenting...different techniques and position of the blade and shaft.

That's why Precision Academy is formed...

pre⋅ci⋅sion [pri-sizh-uhn]

noun
1. the state or quality of being precise.
2. accuracy; exactness: to arrive at an estimate with precision.
3. Mathematics. the degree to which the correctness of a quantity is expressed.
(a) the ability of a measurement to be consistently reproduced.
(b) the number of significant digits to which a value has been reliably measured.

adjective
Used or intended for accurate or exact measurement: a precision tool. Made so as to vary minimally from a set standard: precision components.

At Precision Academy the training is floorball specific and designed to improve all floorball skills at all levels. Precision Academy works with individual players and teams to improve and gain confidence with their speed, stick handling, shooting, floorball vision and mental strength.

We also provide affordable floorball equipments in line with our tagline, 'Now Everyone Can Play'. Brands which we distribute are Fatpipe, Salming and E3M. We're having a big sale now, all sticks from RM200 - RM250 only. For a limited time. Contact 0125959811 for more info.

[beautiful women could be bad for you]

State Physical Training

The attendance for physical training (PT) is always poor. It's like during Maxis broadband fair, everyone tries hard to avoid the promoters. But there are also a pool of regulars who will always be there. This are the people that I wanna 'compete' with. That's drive, motivation and challenge with them around.

Started of with warm up jog Lunges > Push ups > Bicep push ups > Triceps push ups > Crunches > Squats > Plank > 3 sets of sprint. Overall, the difficulty level was there. Since its the first time us doing a whole body workout. That was a good pace to start from. Coach ed thinks we should cut down on the recovery period. Roger that.

I will be taking over next week's PT, so I think we will have a good time together. Like I always put it, 'Let's show 'em (your muscles) some LOVe.' =) For those who wanna improve and keep track on your training. Its good that you have a log book or even a blog, to write down your time, distance, and how do you feel about your training. Monitoring your training helps you improve. If you don't see yourself improving, get a partner to push you harder.

or

Get some PowerBar 'power to push' =)

[Bike 35K]

Labour Day Floorball Challenge 2010

Personally, this is the best performance and the most satisfied victory I've ever tasted!. Coming back from behind is not the trait for Innebandy!Co, nevertheless, we did it. Not just once but twice! If you would to ask us, how we did it. I would say its the mental 'food' that we've been feeding one another with. Every club trains on the 'physical' side but not all are trained mentally. That's the area that we grew most since last year and it really worked well for our team. Well done boys!

team Innebandy!Co 2010
CHAMPION

Throughout this tournament, I learned a few things about myself. Inner circle became more real to me. It's not easy to practice it but I will learn and I will progress from my mistakes. I remember feeling extremely frustrated in our last group match against Dalat. I kinda 'blasted' and it affected my play and the rest of the team. Emotions are really contagious! Its rare that I can't get my head into the game but no man is perfect. We just have to learn from our mistakes and try not to repeat 'em.

After 'releasing' my tension. I came back into the second period reminding myself, I need to focus, I need to stay calm. I need to get back my head into the game. But it was too late. Every second counts when you're competing! I was really tired in our group matches, that might have triggered it. haha!

And the price we had to pay...a lost. =(

training mates [linken.jowyee.me.termin]

When I went home that night, I was determine that I should never repeat that mistake of mine. It may be frustrating when you're teammates don't do what you want. i.e not running around, not making a good pass, making stupid mistakes, etc But Inner Circle means complimenting one another's strength and weaknesses and not pointing fingers at one another. This stands out most in our final match against Ztec. Together with the LOVs, it turned out to be a 'fine' dish. =)

relaxing after our two toughest game in the group stage

Innebandy!Co is more than a floorball club, its a place where we learn, share and develop the Inne Culture (the training philosophies, the law of victory, etc), we learn how to play Floorball well, we learn how to be strong physically, we learn how to love, share and care for one another. Those who are interested to be part of this team, visit Innebandy!Co for more info. =)

Congrats again to all fighter that fought hard! Team Dalat 1, Dalat 2, NTU, Super Juniors, Contact, Ztec 8cers and lastly Innebandy!Co. =)

[Would like to thank PowerBar and FatPipe for believing in my talent and the sponsorship]

Inspiring Role Models

Came across this video through friend's FB. This is wicked! Good stuff to watch when you're feeling 'down' and lazy. Be inspired!

I've Check Her Out

Finally I'm back in the pool! New environment and my gf says..she's a gf with benefits =p She's talking about her condo's swimming pool, not anything else. =p Her pool is slightly bigger than mine and the best thing about her pool is, the water is warm in there. Can't explain how is that possible but yea...it's warm. Oh yayaya., she said my swimming speed was slow. hahaha.

After that I went to check out the used Giant TCR bike. I kinda like it a first sight, but its a really old model, a 2003 model with aloy frame. The one I googled was a carbon frame which is the TCR Once bike. This is different from that, however the owner really took good care of it, and it looks brand new. It looked cleaner than Ima. =x Btw, I just bathe Ima today. She's white as snow now. =)

I did test ride on it, slighty lighter than Ima and the wheelset is pretty slim. I bet I can go faster with this. This means I'm gonna get a bike which is almost the same as Ima. Hmmmmm...He is willing to let it go for 1.7K (after nego) and the intial price after upgrade and everything was about 4K. Not too sure whether I should get it. =x

Gonna face Frontliners Spartan later this afternoon. Excited!!!!!!!!

[fw + swim]

Law Of Victory [expanded version]

Korek-ed this from my sent mail dated 25 March 2010. This supposed to be on our club's blog. =x Team Elite coach, Sam Teoh has forced every member to memorize the 'Law Of Victory'. Every week without fail, he would test the players on it, every wrong line/forgotten line will go without punishment. Which is to run. I think this is a really good law to memorize and to keep at heart. Does not just apply in sports but many areas in life. As for me, it helps me in my relationship with my girlfriend. =)

[From Innebandy!Co's point of view]

Leadership is responsible - It is our responsibility to make sure players are at their best performance by executing the right plan and strategies. We are also concern about player's attitude and the application of the 3ICs on and off court. In Innebandy!Co, winning don't just stop there. We go beyond. ie. attitude, soft skills, etc

Losing is unacceptable - We believe in mental strength and mental preparation, thus setting our mindset on winning every games and giving all out in our training will make us 'unbeatable'.

Passion is unquenchable - It is only when you're passionate bout something. You would automatically take the effort to improve yourself and want to be the best. We want to be driven by passion.

Creativity is essential - Floorball is a very fast paced game, thus being creative in our attack or defense, will distinct us from our competitors. Individual skills and stick work does play an important role in being creative.

Quitting is unthinkable - Our training especially physical training is one of the toughest in Penang. We strive to finish whatever we start as a team. Like how Lance Armstrong puts it, 'Pain is temporary but quitting last forever.' We will never stop trying.

Commitment is unquestionable - Commitment is what makes the team grow and solid. The minimum requirement for an individual to join team LiveSTRONG is commitment. Team Elite has no excuse in this area. Players who show lack of commitment will be degraded.

Victory is inevitable - By practicing the 3 ICs and reflecting on the Law of Victory, Victory is then in our hands!

[BP]

Gonna Meet My New Ride

I just made an appointment to meet 'Giant TCR Once' bike. I'm getting excited! Another new potential toy coming into the family. Hopefully I can seal a good deal. Hopefully I can still keep Ima. =l She has surpassed 1,000 km++ already. Tua han liao. Congratz!

Today's e.devotion with John and KH was another fruitful one. We read Proverbs 20 together and particular liked v25 from it. It is stated, 'It is a trap for a man to dedicate something rashly and only later to consider his vows.' Many of times, we would make promises or commitment towards something hastily or with an intention to please someone. This is dangerous because you're only setting a trap for yourself. That's foolish!

I think I have made a few commitments which I feel like pulling out now. =x Help me!

[RPM]

Save The Planet Please =/

I can feel the temperature rising! I do think earth hour shouldn't be the only event that encourages people to turn of their electrical appliances. Everyone should do their part. Better do it now before its too late.

As I was doing my usual ride to TB and back, I was drenched/flooded with sweat half way through my journey. My hands were soaking wet, my helmet...fuh!! the sponge in it was absorbing all the sweat till it started to drip because it's over flowing. I could taste salt around my lips, it made me more thirsty. I've never sweat so much before, further more it was an early morning ride. =x What's happening to planet earth?

I'm thinking of getting a new bike;

[Giant TCR Once]

or

[Giant TCR Advance]

Ima is still doing well, she's good but I need an ori bike. Money money money? How can I get more of you?

[FW + 42 k bike + prevent global warming please]

Wave Challenge 2010

When Sam posted that this year is the first time him not playing in Wave Challenge after 7 years, that really struck me! Can't believe 7 years passed so freaking fast. =s I'm not putting this in a proud way but I've been winning a medal ever since this started. But this year's win made me realized that winning a medal does not gives me the same satisfaction that I used to have. Why am I feeling this way?

Vanity of vanities, saith the Preacher, vanity of vanities; all is vanity

King Solomon

The only thing that satisfied me was watching people around me happy and excited. Helping others, making new friends and talking to people who shares the same passion for sports. It is really nice seeing fresh blood playing Floorball.

I would also like to thank my friends from KL who comes down yearly to compete in this tournament. I am very proud of every single one of you who fought hard on court. Congratulations to Salichicks!! Finally a medal in hand. Good job! And the debut of Gracebandy!Co in Penang, great job Gerard for making it possible! =)

Am I gonna play dodgeball again next year? hahaha. I think I'm gonna pass. =p

[let's dodge 'em nic]

Team Elite and Team LiveSTRONG

We had a little team meeting last Sunday @ Bukit Dumbar. We shared our goals and vision for 2010 to our players. Introduced team Elite and LiveStrong of Innebandy!Co. It was really exciting as we drew the end picture of 2010. But it would be sweater if it turns out the way we want it to be. We did a few changes and I'm sure it's gonna give a positive impact to the players.

I briefly shared the Law of Victory from John Maxwell's 21 Laws of Leadership, with the intention to boost player's morale and to feed their mind with positive energy. I really hope the purpose was fulfilled and they understand what I said. Sam suggested every player to memorize the phrase below, which is think is a really good idea. There you go;

Leadership is responsible
Losing is unacceptable
Passion is unquenchable
Creativity is essential
Quitting is unthinkable
Commitment is unquestionable
Victory is inevitable

After talking and listening. It was time to run. Coach Sam made up run ten laps around Bukit Dumbar with a target time of 23 or 25 minutes.

I haven't been receiving encouragement or motivation when I train. Maybe it's because I train independently, so I don't get so much from others. But last Sunday, every time I ran pass James (who is the time keeper), he would say, "Good job Des/ doing well/ etc" I tell you, that really boosted me up. I was happy.

The run was a medium intensity level due to the slope and not forgetting the hot scorching sun burning through my skin. Do unto others what you want others to do unto you. If you want motivation, motivate others first. =p Appreciate the love and support!

Distance
3.5km
Time
19.00
Average speed
11.0km/h
Maximum speed
16.9km/h

[ima & hippo]

Meeting & Training Night

I have to admit, I have not been very responsible and active with my roles lately, particularly with the Penang Floorball Association (PFA). I chatted with a friend last Tuesday and it made me realize how little I have been contributing to the Floorball scene. All I have been doing lately is to build and prepare myself. [Yea, pretty selfish I know =x] But what triggered all this? It's personal. haha.

We had a Kejohanan Floorball Sekolah Pulau Pinang (KFSPP) meeting last night and I am really glad to be able to sit with this 'dreamers'. We have a goal to achive by 2012 and I believe we have a great team of people that will make all this happen. 2012 ~ a significant year for me! =)

Went for a date with Ima to Teluk Bahang after that. The road along Gurney Plaza is getting more crowded, hectic and jam. It wasn't that bad months back. What's wrong!?

Distance: 42km
Time: 1:20
Max speed: 68.0km/h
Avg speed: 31.5km/h

When I got back home I was amazed with the Max Speed that I hit, 68km/h and I did that on a flat terrain. It's not a downhill thingy. Gonna break my time and speed in the future. I'm gonna increase my mileage to at least 70k per ride. Time to up the stake!

[Training builds the chemistry - Inner Circle]

Metro Park II

I had the privilege to take over the physical training for the state team yesterday. I had two things behind my head that I wanted to achieve.

#1. To implement the buddy system
#2. To create specific goal. My aim was to set an achievable target for each individual (I believe every one has different capabilities)

But did it work according to plan? Not really. I was late and I could see the players getting pretty restless, so I kinda skip the explanation part. At the debrief, I think everyone was half awake, so I didn't bother explaining as well. So I thought I'd do it here.

Buddy system. I wanted players to run with their partner throughout the 30-minutes. As for me, I believe your buddy/partner/friend is a good benchmark and motivator for you to stay strong and long in the run. The only pair that stick to their instruction was Sarah and Pei Li. They walked together and the ran together. Good job! =)

Specific time target. To get an average time per lap/30 minutes = estimated no. of laps. Then I'll make sure the person reaches the target number of laps. A more achievable target would boost the player's 'semangat' la.

After 30 minutes run and 6 uphill sprints. I was happy and satisfied with the players effort. Not too bad but there is a lot of room to improve.

Got this from one of the player.
e: Thanks for torturing my mucles =)
me: It's all love =)
e: Love your head la.. =) it's torture

Well it's how you look at training. Perspective.

[5.3k@10km/r + all out 6x sprints]

Back To Running

My last run by myself was...hmmmm...errrrrrrr....aaaaarr...errrrrrrrr aiyaaaaa. Can't even remember when la. I've been too comfortable riding Ima. The reason why I have been riding and not running it's because of the speed. I love going fast but when I'm running, it feels like I'm a slow tortoise. =x

Yesterday I forced myself to make a run to Gurney and back which is about 8K. Furthermore the weather was just perfect, nice cool breeze with an after rain aroma in the air. The view from Gurney drive was rewarding as well. And oh ya!!! I saw a husky! So so cool!

Anyway, back to my run. My calves were really tight after the 4K mark. It forced me to take a few stops to stretch and loosen those muscles. I really dislike this feeling. It breaks the momentum but I guess my body were not conditioned enough after a long break. Thank goodness, my 'engine' is still in optimal condition.

Question. Have you ever feel like you needed to stop running and take a break even though you're just half way through your run? How do you overcome this and finish strong? Is it the mental or the physical?

Answer. Evaluate your determination. Look inside yourself and find that 'man' within you. How much you have it will determine how hard you train. The harder you train, the stronger you get up in the head and your body.

Based on a true story. This boy, bugs me like nothing after my badminton match. He said, 'Let's go to Bukit Dumbar, if we're late, Sam is gonna kill us.' I was like, 'Relax la, I just finish my match, still tired le.' But he keep insisting that we go. So I gave in and took him over there. When we got there, the Inne guys were all done and it started to rain. You could see the word 'disappointed' written all over his face.

Even before going there, he has already established in his mind that he wanted to train. He wanted it so badly that he wanted to run in the run after eating Char Bee Hoon. Ain't that insane courage? But of course, we stopped him.

It was time for the rest to go home but he insisted to stay still the rain stop. I accompanied him. As soon it stop, he went out and made his lap. He was like a happy child being able to play! That is what training means to him. What is yours?

Be inspired

[8K @ 10.7km/h & a clean Ima]

Badminton With Senior

The long awaited friendly match against Kok Heng (The senior) and myself had finally come to past. The outcome...one word only. Awesome! Before me going over to the Permata Badminton court, I send him a sms, 'Senior, my arms and chest are aching due to my gym workout last night. Eventho I'm feeling weak but I'll still be there to face you like a man.' He replied, 'Ooooo give you handicap. I only use one hand.' Wtc?

Allow me to give a short introduction to the people who were involve in this friendly match.

[John]

The main dude behind all this. He did the marketing and promotion for our event as well. Gather votes, encourage members to give their support, tally up the votes, give announcements, reminders, etc. As a president for the Praise Youth Impact organisation, he showed the true meaning of humility and leading by example. He also ref our match. Great leadership quality.

[Kok Heng]

A very nice competitor who kills with mercy. Giving you smiles to ease the pain when you're being attack. He is good in making you feel it's okay to lose. What a charismatic person with good sportsmanship.(and a cute daughter). Thanks for the compliment about my physique. =) haha

[Jason C]

A not-so-skillful cameraman who tried to capture our moments. He gave me his opinion on my game play after the game. He mentioned, 'The uncle already hit out, why take the ball?. Why you so lousy? Lose to uncle.' Appreciate it and it's funny to hear him calling KH, 'uncle'.

Match report by John Jonathan Leong Dip. Journalism of Copy Cat

The junior Deswyn took command of the opening game, dictating the pace with his tight netplay
and punishing smashes to lead 2-0. It took great effort from Kok Heng to get back into the picture but once he got the momentum going, it all fell into place for himself. He levelled the score at 2-2 and raced to the end without giving any chance to win 15... See More-2.
The 24-year-old Deswyn took the defeat with mixed feelings.
“I am happy I gave him a good fight but it is still disappointing to lose after coming this far. Kok Heng was just too fast and I hope to catch up with him one day. This outing here has given me a lot of confidence,” he said.
Kok Heng said :-“I will not be satisfied with only the match between Deswyn. There are several more major tournaments this year and I hope to do well – in Sam comment 'winner will play agaist him' and John Jonathan will be my next immediate goal.”

One thing I learn from this is, age is not a factor. Skill is. Don't limit yourself with your age. Screw those numbers. Peace out.

Fitness Moves For Your Every Mood

When I first read this article, I find it interesting and pretty practical in life. So true that we may not have the motivation or 'mood' to train at a high intensity mode throughout the week or month. Read it here.

Some of the examples are; when you're angry, do high energy workout such as kick-boxing, it is said that it will help release tension. When you're feeling down, just take a stroll down the beach and act emo. Haha. Brisk walking is also another good form of exercise. And the list goes on.

As for me, training pace/intensity goes on the same or higher despite whatever mood I am in. And again, this is a mental exercise an athlete has to go through. How much you wants it, determines how hard you train. So screw the mood thing and dun let it overtake you. You are in control, take charge! liveSTRONG only.

Having said this, it's not wrong to follow the above article if you're just training for health purposes. Be happy! =) Have a great weekend.

Physical vs Emotional Pain

Again...last night's state physical training was torturous. Running alone was bad enough but I pushed the extra mile to bring Ima along. She loves watching me train. =) My loyal ever faithful supporter. She's getting a bit 'sick', should take her to the 'doctor' soon.

It was my first time at the Metropolitan Park, Relau. New environment and challenges are waiting ahead. Didn't know what to expect but if coach wants us there, he has his reasons. He gave a short briefing on the route and off we go. 30 minutes of slow/medium intensity running with steep slope and stairs (which hurts) and 5x short sprint all out.

After training and a free refill from Dawn, I quickly rushed back home and cycled Ima as fast as I could. I was looking forward to meeting you...but...

[Love has the ability to destroy or to build you + 34K bike + love is not my thing]

Achieved Everthing In Life?

A good friend of mine sent me the picture below a few days back. I would wanna believe that but I am 100% sure that this is an overstatement. Anyhow, thank you for the faith and believe you have or had in me. =)
Let's analyze the picture together. [Disclaimer: This is based on my assumption/understanding/imagination and may not be the same interpretation as the designer.]

JALUR GEMILANG/HIBISCUS I think this represents my love for the Country and the willingness to 'die' for it. Being a Floorball national player gives me better opportunity to live out to my principle, 'dying' for our motherland and making this country proud. But after many international games and championships. I still failed to make Malaysia and the people at home proud. FAILED.

AEROPLANE It has always been my dream to be a pilot because I love flying. Started wearing spectacles when I was 13, screwed up my SPM and I end up working on land instead of on air. FAILED.

GUITAR Wanted to be a rock star and tour the world because it seems to be a fun thing to do. i.e Touring with your bandmates, playing great music, have fans going crazy over you, making people happy with our songs, etc I wouldn't even consider myself as an electric guitarist. Can't make a, like how Jack Black puts it in 'School Of Rock', a face-melting guitar solo. FAILED.

3 SEXY GIRLS What does it suppose to mean? I have them in life? Well, I'm fortunate enough to have many girl friends for sure. It makes me understand girls better, I guess. Hahaha. But have I been a good friend to them lately? Maybe I've disappointed many of them without realizing. FAILED.

GOLD CUP Winning tournaments? Yes we use to be on a winning streak, but now we have to really work our a**es off if we wanna stay competitive. I wouldn't say I'm a failure in this area because I have a great bunch of teammates in team Innebandy!Co. =) Gold medal for Div1 2010? PASSED.

BANANA Yes, i eat them a lot. =p PASSED.

DOG Would love to have one of my own but with my time I have left. I think the dog will turn into an evil mutated dog for not showering enough care and love. So... FAILED.

THE CROSS/THE BIBLE I am really sorry Youth Impact, Young Gen Cell & leaders. I know I have failed and disappointed many of you. FAILED.

SPORTS COMPLEX FAILED.

LOVE I like how my brother put it on 'my thoughts on love written down a paper'. Go check it out. I admire people like Rueben, Sam, Jeremy, Lin Ken, Gerard, Soong Sern and Cui Lin. How they live out to the word love is just an inspiration. The make love and relationship looks easy. How do you do it!?! My longest relationship with a girl is...1 year ++ max? FAILED.

FOOTBALL BALL People use to call me David Beckham. LOL. PASSED? I really enjoyed my PE sessions with my high school friends. =) Makes me happy.

IMA I still love you but haven't been cleaning you lately. Sorry. PASSED.

THE PERSON IN GREEN #20 DESWYN WAN wake up for goodness sake! FAILED.

What's next? A lot and a lot of work to be done.

PowerBar Press Conference 2010

Recently they requested for my latest information regarding myself. One of the question is my nickname. I can't think of any besides...'Swingin' t**s'. So I wrote there, 'Swingin'. If they would to ask me why 'Swingin' during the press conference, I'll be embarass to death! =s

But that's really my nickname ma. Anyway, it's just for laugh/fun. Don't think I have one also.

I am invited to the PowerBar team elite and team excel press conference this coming Thursday (11 March 2010) at Damansara, The Curve. Gonna be a tiring trip for me. Will be traveling about 10 hours for a 2 hours event. Not too sure what to expect but I hope to meet outstanding athletes there. Need inspiration!

I still owe them pictures of me. Gonna do that tonight or else I'm not gonna appear on the website. Thank You for this great opportunity.

[recovery rate is declining, lack of sleep?]

Headwind

Couldn't make it for state training last night, so I did another ride with Ima. Wanted to cycle the same route as per Monday (Bukit Gambir) but it looked like it was gonna rain. Didn't dare to take the risk.

The difference of riding in the evening and night is the wind. I get headwind through my ride and it tiring. I could even feel Ima swaying here and there. =x

'In aerodynamics, a headwind is a wind that blows against the direction of travel of an object. A headwind reduces the object's speed and increases the time required to reach its destination.'

Things that I've change with my Ima; I took out another bottle cage, so I'm only left with one which for sure is not sufficient for my rides, esp riding in hot afternoons/evenings. I've also adjusted my saddle, a little towards the front, giving me more cadence power in my stride. My playlist, less rock songs more house music. Giving me the extra boost. My mind, totally focus on beating my time in each ride. Find what motivates you? When you find 'it', you'd be more determine to the point physical torture becomes pleasure. Wow...sound like a sadist. =p

Along the way back via Jelutong expressway, there was a road block and I got stopped by a uniform officer.

Police: Stop..!
Me: Yes?
Police: Mana lampu depan you?
Me: Oh...belum beli but belakang ada lampu.
Police: Oh tak boleh tak boleh. This is for your own safety.
Me: Okay okay, I will buy. *laughs*
Police: Okay, jalan.

I guess I have to spend again. =x


[facing 'headwinds' in life now]

The Climb

Yesterday was my worst Balik Pulau climb ever! It was so bad that I took 4 breaks (Usually 1-2 at most). My lungs felt like bursting, my lower body muscles....totally 'beh ki', I was panting for air and I know I looked like sh*t. Uhhhhhhh...it's only a month without hill climbs and my body system has forgotten totally bout it. I guess training on flats does not help in climbs even if you increase your mileage.

Last night's state training was wicked! I really enjoyed the killers and those jumps. Killed many of us but this was the challenge that I need. During our killers, coach said that something that struck me, "Aren't you going to try at all?". It's so true, that we are the one that always limit ourselves. No matter what...keep trying. Try try try till you get what you want!

Arg...! My back. My legs. =.(

After bathing, I continued my movie "Hachi". It teaches me loyalty! If a dog can remain faithful and loyal to it's master even after he dies. How much more can I do the same to my love ones. I like the Akita. So cool!


[ I'm losing my mental strength =x ]

APAC round-up

It's the final showdown for the national team and the last chance to get back our pride and dignity with our national jerseys on. So did we managed to beat the giants? Our coach said this in our dressing room, 'We are facing giants today, and every giant can fall!'. I was inspired by this quote and was pretty fired up and motivated to slay this giants (Aussies) down.

The moment came and we went out there to sing our national anthem and literally face the giants. We were all pretty pumped up and excited until they dismissed from the middle of the court without giving a handshake. And this really pissed some of our players and it affected them pretty badly. Racism statements started coming out from their mouth and I could feel the negative energy flowing through. What difference are we from them when we start doing that? Our weakness for the match was 'sportsmanship' and professionalism on court.

One of the lessons that we learned as a team throughout this APAC campaign was knowing the value of wearing the Jalur Gemilang across our hearts. And showing the true spirit of warriors and fighters. I would say we did improve from day 1 but it wasn't enough to secure a win.

I have nothing much to say about the game. I guess from the previous journal entries, you would at least know how we fare in international tournaments and how we play. Much has to be improved and worked on, especially the mental then the physical.

I salute the players who tried hard and gave everything out during this game. The Aussies are physically stronger and faster than us. They dominate almost the whole 60 minutes but we managed to reduce to gap but playing really hard in our defense.
Final score, 10-0 to Australia and 21 broken hearts (17 players + 2 coaches + 1 manager + 1 official).

[IronMan 2010 Malaysia is this weekend! uhhh..how I wish I could be there]

Post-APAC

The feeling after APAC 2010 is like an injured soldier returning home from battlefield. It hurts mentally and physically. We gave it all but we still fall behind. It was just the worst that I could ever expect. The stats speaks it all. =/ What went wrong I asked myself every night before I sleep?

[me in the middle]

Our opponents got better? They are more hungry? They are faster? More skillful? Better team management? What went wrong?

You tell me/us.

Pre-APAC

I've been working like a dog and training like a slave for this past week. All I need is rest now and I'm gonna get it. =) 6 more hours to go.

APAC is less than a week. This championship has always been significant to me. It's the first time I teared singing our national anthem, first time I see people getting emotional because we lost, us coming together as one regardless of race, religion, colour, etc, and scoring a goal at international level is just priceless. You've to be here to experience it. Train hard.

It's a do or die for our country. With India pulling out, it seems like we are the weakest team in the group. Some have been tattooed with fear of being humiliated and disappointed. I am one of them. Yes, you heard that right. I'm a fighter and I won't give up easily esp. tournaments like this. One of my 3 principles in life is to die for my country. And that is what I'm planning to do. hahaha!

The only thing that limits you is yourself.

I deserve this break. =p